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[ramuhs]

[There's a small smile at that. It is a tall order, he knows. One that he's seen countless have to go through when they realize they are free from the shackles that once confined them. Her situation is a bit different, but it's all the same in the end.

A change to be something new, or at the very least improve from what was once before.]

At least on that you've already made quite the impression. But I am sure you'll be able to do so with whatever you do.

[vermilloci]

As much as an impression as you are making, I hope. [ She musters a small, appreciating smile in return. It's nice to have someone show confidence in her. ]

It's as if you have a legacy, you do. Even if your curse takes you back, you'll have left waves in this world.

[ramuhs]

[There's something somber that flickers in his expression as he thinks about what Clive and the others have told him—how they did carry that legacy and even his very name, the crazy bastards. He didn't want them to be burdened by his mission, which, by the sounds of it, didn't happen, but... His mission had been for others to live as they wish, not to try and be him, too. ]

Hmph, well... I'm not really trying to do anything that grand here. Bit ready to retire from the "world changing" business.

[But this isn't about him, it's about her, and eyes her for a moment.]

But back on you, I think you should talk to Benedikta and Jill more. I know you've met with them already, but they might have some other perspectives and advice that I can't give.

[vermilloci]

[ She hesitates before answering. Going to them for advice doesn't sound ideal if she has to explain herself all over again. But she also doesn't have to tell them everything. Crystals knows it wouldn't be fruitful to ask how to be strong from those who have innate god-tier gifts. However, both Benedikta and Jill have their lives in order-- in Rem's eyes-- so asking for advice on that would be beneficial. ]

They're both so confident. I could talk to them, yes. [ A meek smile, and she lowers her gaze to her hands in her lap. ]

[ A moment passes, and she looks up at Cid. ] Everyone from your world are like them, too. You're all amazing people.

[ramuhs]

[A light smile. How much she ends up telling them, he doesn't know. But whether it's about her curse or just her general situation, those girls will surely be able to give her something she could use, no matter what it is. And, hopefully, she may open up to them more.]

You flatter us. But we're really just like anyone else. We just also have a lot of experience under our belts.

[With harder lives that everyone had to grow up from.]

And you're always welcome to come aboard to hang out.

[vermilloci]

[ She smiles in response, sincerely touched by the offer. ] Thank you, Cid. ]

...I'm going to make it up to you. Somehow.

[ramuhs]

You don't need to do any of that. And like I said, I'll try and see what I can find and let you know.

[A pause.]

Only favor I do ask is not mention to anyone about my own death and circumstances around it.

[vermilloci]

I wouldn't dream of it. [ She replies earnestly, looking up at him. Another thought occurs to her, though, and after a pause to consider asking it at all, she speaks. ]

Does... anyone else know?

[ramuhs]

Only those of my world.

[And.

Then.

A very.

Heavy.

Awkward sigh before he runs a hand over his face.]

Except Benedikta.

[vermilloci]

[ ....... ]

You're kidding.

[ Except she can tell by is tone that he's not. Perhaps this deserves a more sentimental response-- BUT UH, dude. ]

[ramuhs]

[HE KNOWS HENCE THE RUBBING OF HIS FACE.]

I know, and I plan to tell her. The problem is it's not something you can just say out of the blue.

[Another sigh.]

And let's just say she's already a bit "touchy" about my well-being. If I tell her now without proper planning, I'd fear Nogard would lose more than a rib or worse.

[vermilloci]

[ That look of disbelief remains for a few moments more, but by the time he finishes speaking, it settles back into a smile. ]

Well.. That just means she cares about you, doesn't it? [ There's a lift of her brow. ]

[ramuhs]

[There's something of a wry, but soft smile at that.]

Perhaps a bit too much.

[But not a bad thing.]

[vermilloci]

[ She watches his smile for a moment. ]

...Hey, um, Cid?

[ramuhs]

Hm?

[vermilloci]

[ She tilts her head forward. ] It's okay to have people who care for you... also be upset for you. Or over you.

[ And mourn him, as it were.

Rem, too had expressed her sympathies. She can't imagine not caring deeply about her friends, and that includes being sad for them at times. It's normal. ]

[ramuhs]

[...—Ah. There's a small widening of his eyes as he looks at her before it softens again into a quiet laugh.]

Aye, what you say is true. Suppose I'm the type who'd prefer not to let anyone worry too much over me.

[And he can already hear Benedikta's words scolding him about always taking things on his own, of keeping things to himself. So there's a brief moment where his thoughts drift before his eyes return to her.]

But the same to you. Don't try to do things all on your own. Believe me, people won't let you go once they find out.

[vermilloci]

[ Rem shakes her head, stubborn.]

You can't say all that and not lead by example. [ A pause, and she insists: ]

Let her. Worry, I mean.

[ramuhs]

[Hmmm. He'll idly drum his fingers over the edge of his desk, considering her words.]

I'm trying.

[Honestly, the best answer he can give. He's already opening up to her in some ways, but like any person there will be times where some things need to be kept hidden. Or at the very least, not send her on a flying rampage.

...

And here he is the older adult being told this by a young teenager how bad is it really—]

[vermilloci]

[ Rem lets go of the firmness in her tone. She smiles kindly and, hopefully, in a way that is encouraging.

Softly: ]

You seem worried.

[ He's listened to her worries. The least she can do is listen to him. ]

[ramuhs]

[A small huff of laughter as he glances at her.]

I have good reason to be.

[vermilloci]

Oh?

[ Gently inquring. ]

[ramuhs]

It's...a bit of a complicated matter, along with my personal preference to not let anyone be so concerned over me.

[A slight smile.]

My death in particular... There are a lot of circumstances around it, some of which will affect her, so it's not such a simple thing to discuss. It's something where I think we need a better understanding of each other first to try and soften the inevitable fallout that comes with it.

I know it's not much of an answer, but I hope you understand a little bit.

[vermilloci]

[ It's not much of an answer, and it seems that he's not willing to share more, even if all she can offer is to listen. ] I do, and... I'm here for you, if you want to talk about it. [ --But she doesn't press further, because that would be rude.

Still, her expression remains sympathetic. ] I'm rooting for you, I am. [ It's not easy letting others know that you're dead. ]

[ramuhs]

[Just another little upturn of the corner of his lips.]

Perhaps another time. But I appreciate it. And... Rem, I know trying to grapple with the fact you once died and are now alive can be difficult, especially when facing it again.

If you ever need an ear or just want to be around those who are in a similar situation, you don't even need to ask.