The increased wars for one. At first they seemed to have reason, but then I realized those "reasons" were a guise for a different purpose altogether. Then the worsening condition and treatment of Bearers...
[His teeth and hand clench at this.]
They were already practically slaves, but they were also used as tools of wars... And experiments.
But any thought of trying to do any systemic change on the inside was thrown out to the proverbial sea when I saw who he was truly serving. And it wasn't for the people.
[In some ways, it feels a bit strange telling Rem this. It's a story that's not necessarily a secret, but it's not one he would share lightly, not even to Benedikta or Clive. He would if they asked, with the same reservations and emotions as he exhibits here.
But because he sees Rem in that same exact position is the reason why he feels more compelled to tell it. He's seen it, lived it, and her story has thrown so many red flags that parallel his own that he can't help but be concerned.
Now, again, he realizes there is the off chance that things could be different. Maybe this woman isn't as much of a bastard as Barnabas. But "good causes" that are achieved by sacrificing everyone else? Seeing them all as just mere fodder? For power? No, he could never get behind it, even if the person was a true saint.
Even more, Rem reminds him too much of Benedikta. The way they both remain so tight to that sense of "loyalty" to the point of blinding them of the truth. Or if not blind, makes them so they choose to ignore it. He lost Benedikta once already, couldn't convince her to change her mind. So perhaps he may also be trying to prevent that same mistake in Rem.]
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[His teeth and hand clench at this.]
They were already practically slaves, but they were also used as tools of wars... And experiments.
But any thought of trying to do any systemic change on the inside was thrown out to the proverbial sea when I saw who he was truly serving. And it wasn't for the people.
[In some ways, it feels a bit strange telling Rem this. It's a story that's not necessarily a secret, but it's not one he would share lightly, not even to Benedikta or Clive. He would if they asked, with the same reservations and emotions as he exhibits here.
But because he sees Rem in that same exact position is the reason why he feels more compelled to tell it. He's seen it, lived it, and her story has thrown so many red flags that parallel his own that he can't help but be concerned.
Now, again, he realizes there is the off chance that things could be different. Maybe this woman isn't as much of a bastard as Barnabas. But "good causes" that are achieved by sacrificing everyone else? Seeing them all as just mere fodder? For power? No, he could never get behind it, even if the person was a true saint.
Even more, Rem reminds him too much of Benedikta. The way they both remain so tight to that sense of "loyalty" to the point of blinding them of the truth. Or if not blind, makes them so they choose to ignore it. He lost Benedikta once already, couldn't convince her to change her mind. So perhaps he may also be trying to prevent that same mistake in Rem.]